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I'm a fuckin nut
Tomorrow will be so fun though!

Isn't it so crazy

how everything's so crazy but it's all too crazy to really be able to comprehend how crazy it is and everything blurs together in this crazy mess of things but it's not really anything at all because who's to tell what's real and what's not it's all based off perception and what we want to see or what we do believe or don't believe or how we see everything we see but how do we know if it's even there at all or that anyone has any idea what we mean and why diagnose yourself when there's no telling whether or not your diagnosis is real but in all reality it's better to be crazy than sane because why be sane when you can feel and experience so much more than that and it's better to be abnormal in a supposedly normal world. but we all know that no one can determine what's normal and what's not. and when you think outside the box instead of conforming to drawing inside the lines of what other people tell you is accurate, but you don't really know that it is because no one can determine that but there's so many rules because humans decided they rule the world and that we need some sort of structure but doesn't happiness lie in the lack of structure and new experience and doing what may not be considered right but maybe we just love breaking free because we're kept caged in and how can we not fly away when everyone's trying to clip our wings. it's just crazy

dunno

never have been able to get my priorities straight
i just keep coming back but it's always too late
i know you're disappointed
i know you expected more
but when it grabs a hold of you...
i just can't get myself back from the floor
funny thing is this is only the topping to everything else
deception, disadvantage and truth you didn't need to know
do you remember when you looked up to him?
when you loved him?
but now when you hit start nothing seems to go
and you're speaking too fast and going to slow
and you keep getting older but don't seem to grow
and then you stop
covered in worthlessness from head to toe
i remember watching you grow up
you had the most beautiful smile
it didn't matter who was around because everything was worth while
remember the song you had with your daddy?
remember when he didn't remember it anymore?
every day gets slower but every week gets faster
nothing to look for
nothing in store
held up against the wall and all i can hear is screaming
screaming thrashing itself against my skin
curled up on the bathroom floor all you can feel is kicking
well, i guess we knew we couldn't win
too much hate runs through my veins to express
pushed farther into these walls till i can't speak anymore
"it takes two to fuck"
look at you, etched into your flesh
slut
whore
maybe it would be best just to let yourself fall back
back deeper into the ocean of your thoughts
someone pushed you to believing everything and nothing at all
someones watching you wither, your empty heart rots
fall, fall, fall back farther, farther, farther
till you can't see a thing
remember when you could fly so high over?
well you've been cut off - wing by wing