I just had the most interesting thought

Why talk about other peoples lives when you could be living yours?

Happy Friday the 13th

I guess there's some things I'll just never stop feeling. And I know it's about to hit me 10x harder soon. It's not necessarily a bad thing... cause they're great feelings, I just sometimes wish they weren't there.

Missed school today because of a bomb threat or something. Not tryin to get blown up so I didn't want to take the risk. Instead, I went to the mall with Caitlin and got a really cute butterfly ring and sweeeet shades. :) I'm stoked about it.

Not bad for an "unlucky" day. And still so much more to come!

I guess...

It's inevitable that some things will fall apart. I always sort of felt off to the side anyway and there were always times where I was the one who wasn't there. I just wish I could re-do the past year or so, so that maybe.. just maybe, I could make things okay again. Cause I've never appreciated parts of my life more than that. And now it's all falling away through my fingers and there's absolutely no way I can catch grasp of it again. Truth is, I'm not the only one that's tried. That's why I say it's inevitable. And I'd say I'll try more, I'll try harder, I'll be better, but this is me and that's all I really have to give.

I want to exist only in my mind

And I want to disappear from everything else.

It's like, there's nowhere I can be completely alone, yet I feel completely alone in the wrong way all the time.

When I'm with you everything around me falls into place and all the colors only highlight your face.